Wednesday, January 21, 2009


So there are those days where you are able to have a little personal quite contemplation, where you mentally decide you aren't going to allow the unimportant temporal things get in the way of your spirit speaking to you. Then there are those days that compel you to make a day like the above happen. 2008 was a rough year for so many, the days drug on with too many trials and difficult moments. You swear you will not have another 2008 in 2009. Then you wake up, realize you are an adult and life goes on whether you choose or not. Recently some events that have occurred in peoples lives that I love and respect have compelled me to have a day of personal time out. To come closer to my Savior and the unknown plan of my life. What makes or breaks my future out come and what pivotal moments in my life separate my spirituality from that of my temporality. Have I been grateful enough and expressed that gratitude to the people in my life. Have I given my everything to my relationship with Stewart and does he truly know how much I love an appreciate his strength and his patience. Do my children know that I would give my life for theirs and that I want to create a loving relationship a loving friendship with them. Something of not only quantity but quality. If my time here was over would I have given my all and would people know me as such. I hope to find strength in the unknown days ahead and constantly convert myself to the knowledge that my Savior suffered for me and knows me personally, for my faults and my strengths and that I sincerely need him. I hope anyone who reads this will also find strength in the road ahead and find that one piece of self worth to continue strongly through another day. For those of you who are struggling at this time, I have probably at one point or another knelt in prayer for you and you can know that you have an ally in all this confusion we call life. I am so thankful for your part in my life, I am changed because of you. I am excited for the days ahead and pray that I may make the most of each. Life is short, there is a reason this saying is expressed so much, we realize it when we least expect it. All my love, Traci

8 comments:

The Scotts said...

You are awesome. I suck. Thanks for you example.

Whiting Family said...

Thank You, we love and appreciate your little family so much...thank you.

Ami Bethea said...

Thanks Traci, those were my thoughts exactly today but didn't know how to express them. I think they came out as "I'm a mess! I don't know which way is up or what to do with myself." when I was talking to Shanon today. You're great!

Jessica said...

Beautiful! :)

Angie Whitman said...

Loved. all. of. it.

Stewart & Sheila Smith Family said...

Thanks Traci - what beautiful words and know we love you.

Jen B said...

I thank you; for being TRUE, for calling and asking for my help... so we could be friends... when you didn't want too; for striving to live your life with the best of intentions; And for realizing that making mistakes is part of the entire process. You make me laugh, you make me cry, you are truely a light in the dark days of life.

Jaymi said...

Tracy!

I think I needed this now more then 5 months ago! Thanks for making such a great post! Totally crying, aches dull after time right :)! I am glad I got on your blog, I needed that today.